the Holiday rush

i now understand why many people had to have a Holiday rush, i mean they really got no time and the last minute shopping was the only choice they have. i came to understand this because i'm one of those who will be buying gift on the last minute before christmas.

Having no time is sometimes not an excuse, it is a reality. Especially during this season when everyone is busy preparing for Christmas while you have to deal with your responsiblities.

Since December entered i haven't got any decent sleep. I woke up early for the dawn masses, prepare early for work, tire myself out at work. went home feeling like a battered vegetable. got two to three hours of sleep, or its more like a nap.

Friday was one hell of a day. Walking half of the day talking to different kinds of people, arranging the kit for the next day's meeting and preparing fot the party that night. we walked around Ortigas 12midnight looking for a cab, but ended up riding a bus on the way home.

Then last Sunday I spent a good deal of time on a bus going back and forth to Gumaca, Quezon.

I haven't got enough time to process everthing in. I haven't got time to enjoy anything.

And most of all I haven't got time to "Thank" everyone who has been with me this 2009.

I heven't got time to breathe. I but have to move faster, think quick and act accordingly to what is asked of me.

I'm not really good at balancing work, family and myself. i have to let go one, most of the time it was "self" that i need to let go. So having a boyfriend is really not an option since i cannot handle it...

I hate not having time.